It was a dark night
with stars in the silent sky. At about 2 a.m we were in our car,
driving to the airport. Our driver was driving it,My dad sitting next
to him,I was laying my head on my mom's shoulders at the back
seat,both of my younger brothers sitting next to me. We were all very
quiet, everyone was upset and speechless because it was the night I
was leaving home and going away from my family and friends. I was
coming to the US for my exchange program and they all were extremely
happy about that before but as the days came closer to my flight they
all were feeling sad because they won't be able to meet me for about
a whole year.
The past days were
going on in my mind like a flash back film. I was remembering my days
in the small town I belonged to and the troubles and obstacles that I
faced in my way to the exchange program from a village of Pakistan.
The town that had illiterate people who never used to get education
themselves and not even allow others' to do so. How I got out from
that place and made my way to the US. Those sarcastic comments of the
people that, “you can't do this. You are form a small town. You are
not good enough to pass the tests and get qualified.” And my mom's
love protecting me from that sarcastic world like a beautiful angel.
As I remembered that I was thinking that I'll miss her a lot. I was
lost in my thoughts and my mom lifted my face up and looked at me
with a shine in her eyes which were filled with tears. As she was
looking at me I realized that I actually had been crying and tears
were rolling down from eyes to my cheeks but I was so lost in my
thoughts that I didn't realize that. She wiped up my tears and hugged
me and I felt like I am at the most safest place in the world. I
closed my eyes and jut felt the warmth of that hug. Nothing can be
more comfortable and relieving than mom's hug. Then she started
advising me that “ eat your meal on time, sleep well, don' worry
for anything” said my mom. And I was just saying “don't worry I
will fine”. I was trying to make her feel relaxed and satisfied
about me, But I knew that I can't be fine without her. This was sort
of lieing to her but I had to be strong and control my feelings and
thoughts and I remember how I was controlling my tears. I never felt
so responsible before in my life.
It was really
unbelievable for me that I was actually sad on the night I had
waiting for. This was the thing I had been trying for since the whole
year. I was damn excited about my trip to the US but as the time to
departure was coming closer, I was feeling nervous and a little
scared about it. It felt like I wanted to take my family with me
which was just impossible. This was the day I was realizing that how
much I loved my family and what do they mean to me.
When we heard the
announcement for departure I was meeting all my family members and
hugging them for the last time. My father hugged me and this was the
second hug I have ever got from him in my life. And he said that
“dear, you made me proud of you today.” These were the words I
had been waiting to hear since I was born. Because I was never so
attached to my father. We were never so close. We even used to talk
very rarely. One of the reasons is that he never used to believe that
I can ever be successful in my life and do something for my future,
Which was really heartbreaking for me because I used to try so hard
and sometimes I just wished to yell and tell everybody that “no, I
am strong enough to do everything. I will make my own identity and I
will prove it to you one day!” and it became the mission of my life
to make him realize that my efforts are not fruitless. My mom was
always the great supporter of me but my father didn't actually
believe in education. Though he was well educated but he had became a
pessimist and never used to expect anything from me. That night when
I was in his arms I have no words to explain how happy and excited he
was. I saw his lips spreading his charming smile all around his
cheeks. His eyes were sparkling. He looked at me like I am the apple
of his eye,.I could see the energy in his body that he was getting
from the joy. He hugged me and I felt like I am at the most safest
place in the world one can be. I still miss the comfort of that hug.
Seemed like I got everything what I wanted from God and my life is
complete now. I had accomplished my mission. This made me feel strong
and I got inner confidence that if I can make my father to believe in
something which is the toughest thing on earth, then I can do
anything than why not living alone for an year.
We heard for the
call for our departure and I had to leave them. I hugged them all
saying good byes and they all were just looking at me till I was out
of their sight and I was also keep looking back at them as much as I
could.
I was thinking in my
flight too about my father's mind and how I changed it. It made me to
believe that if you really want to do something you just have to keep
the faith and keep on trying. Efforts for good are never futile. You
just have to first believe in yourself and then never loose hope. You
will be successful surely.
