"Do you trust me? "
"Of course, I do. Otherwise I wouldn't tell you everything. Why'd you ask?"
"WOW, you trust me?! Well, DAMN! CRAP, HELL, NO. NO. NOOO!! " -_-
"What? Why? What happened?.... Hey, reply plz.? " :O
And I quit replying..
I soo wanna break your trust. Like it's not even funny. Trust me, like no shit!
Every now and then, I think of the 2 year old boy sitting next to me on the swing in my balcony. We swing on it together, we play, we laugh, we talk and we share things about our school. Yes, it's when we are 2. I have the best time of the day with you and think of it when your're gone.
And I still remember that little boy and his talks even now if I'm 17.
And now, I see a 17 year old teenage boy, who cheats with his loved ones, breaks rules, breaks *hearts*, doesn't give a damn to truthfulness, honesty, sincerity and being nice.
"What? Am I not honest with 'you'? ", you would ask me. Yes, yes you are all honest with me and that's exactly what kills me!
No, Seriously. What hurts the most is that 'I know' you're ruining yourself. 'I know' that you're gonna end up bad. 'I know' that you're becoming the person nobody wants you to be-specially not me.
And yet, I still can't DO anything! And that's because of the trust of you on me.
That 2 year old boy forces me, urges me and commands me to change this 17 year old teen into the person he was supposed to be. And the very core of my soul wants to bring that boy back. And I'd do anything to bring him back and yet, Nothing! I don't have the power to. Since I'm bound to the strong bond of our friendship and I don't wanna loose it.
How can I just stay quiet and let you finish yourself when I am one of your well-wishers? How can I just see it all silently and let you die and don't even try to save you? Just because you damn 'trust' me to keep all your dark secrets, I have to be co operative in a painful way.
And yet, I'm having a battle inside of me, thinking if I should listen to those 2 year old boy and girl or this teenager..?
Which makes me wonder that how would 'you' react if the situation was reversed? Would you save me or let me destroy myself with my very own will?
Think about it!
"Of course, I do. Otherwise I wouldn't tell you everything. Why'd you ask?"
"WOW, you trust me?! Well, DAMN! CRAP, HELL, NO. NO. NOOO!! " -_-
"What? Why? What happened?.... Hey, reply plz.? " :O
And I quit replying..
I soo wanna break your trust. Like it's not even funny. Trust me, like no shit!Every now and then, I think of the 2 year old boy sitting next to me on the swing in my balcony. We swing on it together, we play, we laugh, we talk and we share things about our school. Yes, it's when we are 2. I have the best time of the day with you and think of it when your're gone.
And I still remember that little boy and his talks even now if I'm 17.
And now, I see a 17 year old teenage boy, who cheats with his loved ones, breaks rules, breaks *hearts*, doesn't give a damn to truthfulness, honesty, sincerity and being nice.
"What? Am I not honest with 'you'? ", you would ask me. Yes, yes you are all honest with me and that's exactly what kills me!
No, Seriously. What hurts the most is that 'I know' you're ruining yourself. 'I know' that you're gonna end up bad. 'I know' that you're becoming the person nobody wants you to be-specially not me.
And yet, I still can't DO anything! And that's because of the trust of you on me.
That 2 year old boy forces me, urges me and commands me to change this 17 year old teen into the person he was supposed to be. And the very core of my soul wants to bring that boy back. And I'd do anything to bring him back and yet, Nothing! I don't have the power to. Since I'm bound to the strong bond of our friendship and I don't wanna loose it.
How can I just stay quiet and let you finish yourself when I am one of your well-wishers? How can I just see it all silently and let you die and don't even try to save you? Just because you damn 'trust' me to keep all your dark secrets, I have to be co operative in a painful way.
Which makes me wonder that how would 'you' react if the situation was reversed? Would you save me or let me destroy myself with my very own will?
Think about it!
Dude! no idea who you're talking about- But i like your post. The message has been conveyed beautifully and guess what? It brings back memories. Remember my first host family. All that crap.
ReplyDeleteBut I love your post. Keep writing :)